Saturday, December 10, 2005
8:49 PM
Okay, so I know it's been a while, but maybe i'll stick with this whole blog thing. Steph would probably be the only one to read it, but at least I can use this to keep track of my own thoughts. So here goes.
I love college. But I hate college. I miss my friends. One or two in particular for VERY different reasons. I talk to one of these friends almost everyday. He/she is my best friend these days. Shocking as it is. I love my roomie. But I hate my roomie. She is crazy in a good way. But she is crazy in a bad way. I have trouble meeting new people, but I NEED to meet new people. I need it like water or air. But i'm suffocated by my roomate. And yet, I don't go out on my own because I feed off of the asphyxiation. I feel like I have neglected Brittany. Here she lives in the same town as me and I haven't seen her once. Same with Maggie. I miss her sooo much. But I know that Maggie is doing fine. She may not know it right now but she is an amazingly strong person. I've only seen her brake down on two very select times and she deserved it. I wish I could have that strength. I hardly ever talk to Reid and I get an overwhelming sense of guilt because of this. After all, we go to the same school and live like 2 blocks from each other. I think my roomie has alot to do with this. But i'm sure Reid has a life of his own...you know, the things you are supposed to have in college: friends, plans, inside jokes with people other than your roomate. On the bright side, I only have a week left until I can go home and take a break from whatever it is I seem to be going through here in lincoln.
Thanks for listening...whoever is out there...
Charley