Saturday, January 07, 2006
7:55 PM
After a semester of being a sorority girl, I have decided that it is really not for me. I didn't like it. I'm not going to pretend I did. I hated meetings and everything else we did. The girls in it we weird and I just don't like being associated with something like a sorority. I feel a lot better. Like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders.
Christmas vacation was good. Although, I feel I didn't get enough time with a lot of my friends. Especially at New Years. I didn't really get to see anyone. And while I did get to hang out with probably my best friend quite a bit, I think some of my friends don't like it. I fully understand why, but when Ann gave Nick Volf a hug goodbye and I didn't get so much as a "see ya" you tend to notice that something is wrong. Everything I do ends up messing something else up. You try to hang out with your new best friend and your old best friends end up mad at you. Now, i'm not even sure about this friend. I hate being seen as "one of the guys." It's one of those things that makes you feel really bad about yourself. Like you're not feminine enough. It doesn't really bother me because I am who I am and they will be my friend no matter what. I'm glad i've got that figured out, but I just wish I knew how to be friends with two people that hate each other. Its so confusing. This entire post is confusing. I'm sorry to anyone unfortuante enough to read this.