Thursday, August 31, 2006
8:47 PM
I am a worrier. I get it from my mom. Much of the time I put on a brave face and I can even talk tough once in a while, but really i'm terrified. I'm terrified that i've lost Maggie forever, because of a stupid blog. I'm afraid that I had lost her even before that. I'm afraid that I've lost Ann as well and i'm even more afraid because I don't know why. I have to work 5 days this week. I have no idea how to do this and keep up with my school work. I have no attention span so it takes me all night just to get something done. This is why I never did my homework in high school. It just took too long for me to sit down and concentrate. I think this is why i've never been a huge fan of watching movies. I mean, I love them but only if I am scrapbooking, coloring(yes, i still color-some people have comfort food, i have comfort coloring), sketching, writing, playing a game w/ friends, or anything so that I can break up concentrating for so long.
Anyway, so now i'm worried about a friend. Because they aren't acting like they usually do. Well, two friends, but one of them has their own issues to work out. I know that I shouldn't worry because I know that they are fine and perfectly capable of handling their own lives, but I care. I care too much.
On a brighter note, I've discovered that it's not that hard to meet people. I have met so many people in these first couple of weeks of school that it is incredible. I'm not sure if i'll ever actually hang around some of these people outside of class, but it's nice knowing that they remember me from day to day and know who I am. It's gotten so much easier for me to talk to people too. Moslty, i've discovered to just start talking. Someone is bound to listen. Most of the time, they talk back and seem interested and other's just look a little confused or unsure about what exactly is going on. I really hope that I can find some friends that I can go out with from time to time, because I haven't hung out with friends since Kayla left. As much as I appreciate my new alone time, it would be nice to go out sometimes.
Au revior, mis amies! Je vous aime vraiment tout, surtout vous. (you've got to love french class...)