Sunday, October 01, 2006
8:59 PM
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i dont want to do my french. i just bullshitted my way through a shakespeare paper. had no paper. had to trim paper out of my sketch pad. still haven't read the stories that i wrote the paper about. still don't like my media class. still don't want to be a journalist. i like to type with my head down on my desk. i want to go home. i want to hang out with my mom. i'm really scared she's going to die. i don't know why. i just feel that way. like when you feel like you need to spend a whole bunch of time with someone because you don't know how long you'll have with them. i hate it. i feel like that too much these days. not just with my mom. still don't know what i want to do with my life. well i do. but i don't think the fam would approve. i want to own a flower shop. i want to arrange flowers. flowers for birthdays. for anniversaries. for "honey i love you's". for funerals. for weddings. for "welcome to earth, baby's." for "i'm sorry i fucked this up's." i want to sell little knick-nacks and daybrighteners. i want to dust my little shop and greet little old ladies. i want to help men pick out flowers for his wife. not roses. lillies are more romantic. or daisies say you're cute and i want to be with you. i dont want to sit in a cubicle. i dont want to answer to my boss. fuck my boss. i hate my job. i like the people i work with. i like myspace layouts. i like change. im scared. im scared of losing it. everything. i want a motorcycle. not like a harley. like a fast bike. i want to go really fast. i want to feel it. i want to zip around cars and through traffic. i hate the term "crotch rocket." it sounds like a vibrator. i'd rather have a motorcycle than a vibrator. i'm sad that Steve has a girlfriend. he's majoring in political science. he has funny ears. i think he can be mean though. like rough mean. i would forgive him though. i forgive people too easily. i used to think i could hold a grudge. i cant. i melt like butta. still
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