Saturday, December 16, 2006
7:52 PM
-It's another night at the Embassy Suites. Although, having worked both ES and LNT, out of the two, I would work at the Hotel any day. I'm on my 12th hour of work today, and not doing too bad. My feet hurt and i'm going to soak in my shower for a good hour after work, but it could definitely be worse.
-I'm so excited to go home. My friend Maria is having a party on Wednesday, so I SHOULD stay for that, but I kind of just want to go home. I'm so tired of being here. I'm super excited to seen Ann. And I really hope I get to see Steph and Maggie, too. I know I may not be at the top of Maggie's mailing list but I'm going to see her over break whether she likes it or not. I really miss her. I'm excited to see Holly, too, of course. I'm thinking thursday night we're doing bored games. I hope everyone can make it. It would be lots of fun.
-I've been questioning religion, a lot lately. Not really on purpose, but if God didn't want us to question, he wouldn't have given us free thinking. Why was Mary a virgin? I have been doing a little reserch on it, and have found several answers, nothing very consistant though. Some say that some women took a vow of chastity and married anyway. Poor Joe, is what I have to say about that one. Others say that in some cultures, the wife was to remain a virgin. I don't understand the point of marriage in such situation, not that all marriage is is sex, but the original point of a man and a woman joining together was to create another live. A.K.A...S.E.X. Some wonder if Mary and Joe were even married, but it states clearly that she is. Another is that in the translation of the Bible, the word virgin was misinterpreted and was really supposed to only mean 'maiden' or something of that sort. That's the only logical explanation to me. I'm not saying that I don't believe that Jesus was not born of God, to Mary, but was she really a virgin? Maybe Joe was a Homosexual. Either way, i'm not sure I believe it. Some Christians believe that the only way Jesus could be born without sin is if he was born of a virgin. SO...maybe Jesus IS the son of God, it's just that Mary might not have been a virgin. I don't know. Religion is so wierd. I really want to believe in Heaven, but I just don't know if I do. I kind of think that once you body physically dies...that's it. Dead. No thought. No nothing. You're just gone. It's like going to bed, without a dream. You don't know you're sleeping. But you are. I HOPE that there is something after death, but it seems like it would be a little crowded. There's a whole lot of dead out there. Buddhists believe in reincarnation. Part of me KIND OF believes in that. Like you just move on to something else. That wouldn't be so bad. As long as you don't comeback as something crappy. And I don't want memory of my previous life, either. I'd be too sad. And trying to get into contact with them. Like the movie, Fluke. Sad movie. Not as sad as the Fox and the Hound which is almost too sad for a children's movie in my opinion.