Thursday, January 11, 2007
7:36 PM
I had a really good day today. Ceramics was fun, I got to play with clay. Mythology was fun, I got to play with Andrew. My favorite show was on tonight, and it was amazing (as usual). I just can't figure out why at the end of the day, i'm just so bummed. I just can't be satisfied with myself. I know what has been bumming me out as of recently, but i've been trying to not let it bother me. The only thing that terrifies me is being left by another best friend, and yet it's happening again. My 4th best friend is leaving me. And it hurts. Like it always does. I'm to the point where i'm afraid to make friends because i'm scared they'll all leave me. I really didn't think this one was going to leave me. I thought this one would stick. Especially because he knows just how I feel about this type of thing. I mean, you get so used to something, talking to someone. It becomes a part of your daily routine. It's like when you don't brush your teeth in the morning. You're left with a weird feeling in your mouth all day. And now I have a weird feeling in my mouth and no amount of brushing can get rid of it.
On the bright side of things, I will be making my first attempt at ceramics this weekend. Our first assignment is to make a teapot and I hope mine turns out well. We made little domes out of our clay today and I have to say mine was in the top 2, if not the best one. Not that making a dome out of clay is a highly skilled process, but I was happy nonetheless.